I know I should sleep. I'm actually sitting on my bed. But I also have my laptop open to a blank page. The white screen fills my room as a metaphysical representation of my latest writers block. There is no deadline, no urgent need to finish this script, this scene. Yet, I am still unable to bring myself to close my screen.
I do not know what drives me. The feeling that maybe an idea will come in the next minute. But hours go by and I do not know where I want to take the characters. Then I realize, in sudden revelation, that I cannot pull the characters in any direction. These characters, in themselves, are alive and are taking me on a journey. Just right now, they want to take a break.
Thus, I sit awake late into the night, waiting. When they are ready they will let me know and their story will continue. It could be the late night after a long day. But it feels right. It is satisfying knowing that my characters exist within themselves and not because I just dictate.
And how crazy this must all sound. Yet, when you think about it. It makes sense, we strive to create characters we can relate with, characters that feel like real people. Thus, what is so wrong with treating them as such when writing? I do not see an issue, although, if you start to see me write about how I'm going to have coffee with them, then yes, I might be crazy.
I think I'll sit here awhile longer staring into white nothingness and enjoying every minute of it.